it's not easy being this bitter, i promise

i really hate seeing some people happy when i'm so sad.  and i don't wish ill upon them or anything, i'm just sick of seeing them so happy with what's going on and i'm sitting here feeling lonely, sad and kinda depressed about my plight.  like the title says, it's not this easy being bitter... lol  when they say life isn't fair, they're not joking.  that's all