we've all seen a boy or a girl that as soon as you see them for the first time you're just shocked. frozen, can't move, can't even think any other thought than that one single first thought: i really wanna kiss and hold that person eventually.
at least that's the intense kinda crush.
there's the kind were you see them and think they're one of the most beautiful people you've ever seen and you get to know them and they're one of the best people you've ever met and you want to spend every spare second you have learning more and more about them. and then you eventually get to spend a little time here and there. and it just gets worse and worse as time goes on... the more you come to know this person the more you want more, and you haven't even kissed them yet.
but lets say there's no way anything can happen. for any reason, pick any one of them you can think of. anyways, knowing this you continue on, learning more, liking more, wanting more...
ever have it were the person has a smile so unbelievable and perfect that when you hear someone else making them laugh it makes you stupid jealous because you want to be the one making them laugh so you can see them laugh and smile?
oh, and it really helps when they have a laugh that makes you never want to stop being funny, i promise.
it's truly horrible when you have choices in life that have great benefits, however much a gamble the outcome could be, but you can only choose one. with a consequence following making the said choice, of course. i've made my choice already, and it truthfully kind of hurts in a way. not like a dying pain, more just like a kind of disappointment. i guess, i don't know how to explain it. it's never easy to.
and some might say that i'm kinda acting crazy and weird. they're probably right, but i'll say this:
it's not easy when you've stayed single on purpose for a long time and you meet someone who makes you possibly not want to be single anymore right before you're moving 20 hours away.
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