ah........ yes..... day's off

so i spent my day doing....  nothing...  :)  i spent my entire day off laying around and doing nothing constructive whatsoever.  it was absolutely amazing...  i feel so relaxed, rejuvenated, and happy.  tomorrow is another day off to enjoy which is even better.  i just wanted to share that with everyone and brag a bit about it...  i did do SOMETHING today.  i photoshopped the shit out of an old picture.  but it looks awesome.  that's it, if you didn't figure it out.  anyways, i'm out.  gotta go get paid!!!

-justin

alright, that's it!!!

ok, so i got this damn blog thing to be able to sit here and type out whatever was on my mind or whatever was bothering me.  i've been listening to cauterize's first cd all day and it's making me miss better times...  better in that it was all new yet familiar to me when it was happening.  new and old friends, new love, new heartbreak, growing up way quicker than i ever imagined, making the best and worst decisions of my life...  ugh... i dunno, dude.  everything that's been happening lately feels like that again, and it's scary to me a bit.  moving to florida, changing my entire life around, feeling like there should be something pulling me back and keeping me here but there isn't anything so now i feel like i have no choice but to move.  i want to go, ultimately i want to go and start living a new life really bad.  but the stupid part of me kinda half assed wishes something would happen to keep me here because i'm so comfortable and know everything around me...  ugh... :P  fuck life...  fuck making decisions and living day to day...  i feel like i never do anything i want, ever.  never have time to do the fun things i always wanna do.  that's what florida is for really, but still.  if it could happen here, why wouldn't it???

oh, and get this shit.  so i moved to st. paul MN last year and i was dating a girl when i left and i came back because of her...  blah blah blah, you know how the story goes if you know me personally...  same girl is begging me to stay here, even though i never see her, barely talk to her...  any normal person would say "forget it then" but she's the only person that's really said to me "don't go, i'll miss you too much".  everyone else around me has basically said "see ya, keep in touch" and that's about it.  it's really starting to get to me, really starting to hurt.  it seems as if everyone around me is just waiting for me to leave their lives y'know?  and that's kind of a horrible feeling.  i'm sure it's not true, but that's the only vibe i'm getting so it's really the only thing i can think.  oh, and on top of all that, less than two months before i'm supposed to leave, i develop a crush on someone...  lol  now THAT'S hilarious.  

when i move down to florida, it turns out that i'm going to have to be sharing a room with my dude when i'm there.  now, i have no negative feelings towards anyone that i'm gonna be living with, but i'm 25 fucking years old, i don't want to fucking share a fucking room with another fucking dude.  that's fucking bullshit.  i'm gonna be paying 250 in rent alone to have 0 privacy at all times.  fucking awesome.  it's making me hate the idea of moving now, to be honest.  god, i don't know....  i really don't know....  i'm sick of the answers never being easy enough, ever.  it's not like it happens every once in a great while but this shit has been happening to me since 2003 and it's REALLY fucking time to have something change or i'm giving up.  on life, on everyone around me, on love, on music, on EVERYTHING...  

ugh...  technology will finally hit it's pinnacle when everyone i want to read this blog, can just be standing in front of me whenever i want them to and i can just scream all this at them to my hearts desire.  fuck...  someone save me.

-justin

rum and diet

so i went out to a bar last night...  two bars, actually.  and i drank rum and diet coke...  today my stomach feels like fucking d-day.  it was too much fun though.  this girl i think is really cute and i kinda like asked me to come out so i did  lol  saw brandon and katie though!!  that was awesomeness :)  and i also saw (and i am not exaggerating) over 15 people i went to high school with.  like way worse than usual.  and i came to find out that a couple people i went to school with are very very VERY sweet and kind and i'm seriously hoping i get the chance to go out and hang with them again.  this is gonna be a short-ass blog today i think...  there's not much else here i wanna type.  although i will say that i'm totally jonesing to play some guitar today.  like actually sit and write something if i can.  and maybe sing...  oh boy...  later, loves!!!

-justin

are you kidding me???

so crazy ass story time!!!  i'm at work today (shittiest day ever, by the effing way)  and my dad comes in to switch cars with me.  proceeds to tell me that our house was broken into.  yeah, i'll give you a sec...

ok, so here's the scoop, dear readers:

my sister wakes up to our dog basically screaming as well as a dog could.  she opens her door up and sees a man standing there looking into our bathroom.  she screams "what the fuck are you doing in our house?!?!?", scares the shit outta him, he runs, she chases (I KNOW RIGHT???) him out of the backdoor with the dog chasing them both.  he accidentally knocks the gate open when he hurdles it so my sis stops to keep the dog from running out too.  whew...

so the cops were called, everyone is fine, nothing was stolen.  nothing was even broken.  thank god...

i was so emotional at work earlier after my dad told me all this...  seriously, i almost cried.  mostly because i was so relieved that my sister and mother (who were both sleeping at the time whilst my dad and i were at work, mind you) were ok and unharmed and that my dog was still alive.  cause i guess there's been alot of break-ins in this area and they've been shooting the homeowners dogs' whenever they break in.  fuck that, i'd hunt them down and tear their fucking eyes out if they killed my dog...  so anyways, now we have all new locks on the doors and a really cool new motion sensor light for our backporch.  

i still can't believe this happened though...  in BEDFORD????  really???  anywho, i'm gonna bounce out now.  later!!

Monday monday...

ah......  finally home from work...  7a.m.-3p.m....  big fun.  i'm sitting here listening to our song "windows i'll never see through" and i gotta say this song still gives me the chills...  the lyrics, chord progressions, vocal melodies, it's all bangin'...  anyways...  so there's been an influx of "interested" women it seems lately.  at least, going from zero to something is always an influx so yeah.  it's just kinda weird to me that it happens right before i'm moving, y'know?  and bullshit too  lol  

dude, i busted my ass at work today...  didn't sit down once and got everything possible done.  needless to say, my boss is happy with me again  :)  currently listening to sky eats airplane, btw.  i sent my dad a song through the email last night.  haven't heard back from him yet about it and i'm really curious to know what he thinks even though i'll tell everyone all day that i don't care.  i mean, i really don't, but if he likes it i wanna know of course.  if he doesn't, fuck him  lol

my dude travis at work is a trip, man...  this kid gets so high so easily and just says and does the goofiest shit all day.  i love it.  i can't wait to leave that damn place though...  'cause that means i'll be in florida once i do.  and d's leaving in five days, which is gonna be weird as hell...  ok, that's enough for now.  piece

First one in a million

so here it is, my first blog on blogspot.  it was bound to happen i guess.  i like sitting here and typing and putting random thoughts down in front of me.  sometimes i think i have too much shit going on in my head and i don't actually get to sit and write in my notebooks and shit like i used to.  so i figure why not just join up on this thing and it could be almost as good.  plus, if anyone reads this crap then they might understand me a bit better and maybe figure out why i say/do half the weird/stupid shit i do.  like using two sets of "/" words in one sentence.  who does that???  this guyyyyyyyyyyyyy......  *points thumbs backwards*

ok, anywhoha...

what to say what to say...  i'm really surprised at how warm my slippers are keeping my feet warm today.  too bad the rest of my body is about as cold as an icelander's nosetip.  if you understand the vernacular...  man i can't wait to move to florida and just start living a different life.  i'm gonna kinda reinvent myself when i'm there.  i need to get healthy and start lifting again.  it's pathetic how i've REALLY REALLY let myself go.  pathetic...  and i need to get a tattoo soon.  got a bunch of great ideas but no money to make it happen.  that's booty.  yeah...  oh yeah, the new sleep sound cd is "out" technically.  it's a total dance-fest and it rocks mine and a few other peoples socks right the eff off, i'll tell ya.  ok, that's enough complete shit from me for now.  not bad for a first time "blogger".  i feel so gay now...  hahaha  not really

-justin